I don't know what am i thinking, i don't know who am i, i am very scared, really scared.

I offed my cellphone,

I've thought of ways to attempt suicide.

Jumping down the building, cutting myself, allow vehicles to run over me?

It's either painful or bloody. I dare not do that. I am very scared. I don't know what to do.

I am really feeling very lost.

Overdosing myself using panadols and alcohol doesn't work at all,

the nausea and vomiting is worst than dying.

I felt so helpless, and painful.

Today, i woke up with my swelled pair of eyes, feeling very sick.

I locked myself in the room for the whole day, doing some soul searching.

I on my cellphone, i read and listened to all sms-es and voice mails;

I'm sorry, very sorry. I'm sorry for making you guys worried, I felt really lost for that very moment. I've got no one to talk to. I'm all alone... ...

I don't wanna hurt the people i love and care who loves me,

But at times i wonder,

How many people will grieve over my death?

How many people will actually seriously feel pained over the cessation of my existence?